almost three years in photos

So, I thought to write this (even though it's mostly pictures). I started this blog for myself but also, giving an insight to people about me and what does go in my life..to show that being a mother at this age, isn't that bad. But, it's turned into more than that for me, it's kind of my release as the days get stressful..I always have something interesting to think about in my late night rampages of the interwebs. I hope that one day when Brody is older and can understand, he can go back and look at this blog and realize..he's had an amazing life and to see all the things his father and I have done to provide for him. But this entry isn't about Brody it's about a boy.

 

 No, I never truly thought I'd say this, but I kind of did find someone I guess I could consider my 'soulmate', someone who's seen me at my worst and my best and it goes the same way for him. I came into his life at a awkward, weird time. But, I feel like..that whole situation, made me open my eyes to see that he wasn't just this tough guy, asshole type. That he truly had a heart, and the biggest one. Beneath all of it, he's the most caring person I have ever met. Some people may say, they don't like him, they think he's bad for me or a bad person. But, I can tell you this, Seth Andrew Bias is none of those things. He is an amazing father who will provide as much as he can for our son, if he could, he'd give me the world. And, he's told me more than once. People may say he's a liar, that I'm stupid for always going back to him..but I think that's what you do when you love someone. You go and try to make things work, you would drop people you never thought you would for that person. I'm someone who when I truly care, I'll do anything to fix a situation for the better. I've done that more than once with him. I can't say that I'm perfect, or anything special but I can tell you I feel special when I'm wrapped in his arms. 

I hate to think of the fact that we could possibly be 3 hours apart in a month or so, I hate to think that I'm not going to be able to run to him when everything isn't right. I don't think he even knows how much it kills me inside to think about. Because, I don't want him to worry about me..I know he's going to do what he loves, and I know that I need to, no, have to support him 120% of the way. 

I think it was yesterday, I was over at his grandparents house while him and Shane were there with Brody. I had gone outside to smoke a cigarette and came back in, all Seth said to me was "Say yes babe" and I stupidly said "No" because he simply told me to say "Yes", not being sure of what he was making me say "Yes" too. But, it was the cutest thing, what I've always wanted. A Vegas wedding and just running off, I'm sure that's how we'll do it, we've talked about it time and time again. Suprisingly, he said this all in front of his brother..for whatever reason I never thought that he would say it to anyone but me. I guess, I was even then proven wrong. I'm constantly proven wrong by Seth, shown how much he does care for not only Brody but myself. I hate when certain people bring up, how much he cares about Brody. I'm here too. And, Seth makes it very well known that I am.

Yes. - I'm still in love with this boy, and I will never fall out of love with him. Don't forget that, Seth.. 

(Yes, I know 3 blog updates in like 3 hours. I'm on a roll, and I'm going to bed now)

foto love friday.

 ♥ i have a weird obsession with owls ♥

 ♥ brody's alter ego - carlos ♥

 ♥ my inner animal - slowpoke ♥

 ♥ why are these bags so hard to find! ♥

 ♥ alice in wonderland quotes ♥

 ♥ these ridiculous beauties ♥

 ♥ oh how i miss the days of all night beer pong oh well ♥

 every girl has an inner cinderella

 bob marley, amazingly i did grow up listening to him and the wailers

 i need to get in the serious mood to make more cute bracelets

 yes. ♥

 ♥ girl, interrupted 

 yes, i'm sorry to break it to everyone. i am rather atheist. i use to deny it and not want to even claim that, but i've come to terms that i cannot stand religion and i think it's possibly the stupidest thing known to man. i always try to keep that kind of quiet, since i do care what my dad thinks and i don't want to completely burst his bubble and give up all hope on me.

 i'm considering this using this as a tattoo piece eventually, when things turn around

 ♥ so hopelessly addicted to words with friends ♥

♥ call that bitch my body guard, yeah that's my body guard ♥

welcome to summer

 ♥ “Shoulder pads may come and go, but a BFF is forever. Because even when you’re not sure where you’re headed, it helps to know you’re not going there alone. No one has all the answers. And sometimes, the best we can do is just apologize and let the past be the past. Other times, we need to look to the future and know that even when we think we’ve seen it all, life can still surprise us and we can still surprise ourselves. XOXO, Gossip Girl.” ♥

 ♥ summer lovin' happen so fast ♥

♥ I'm in love, al-ri-ri-right with my crazy beautiful life ♥

 ♥ this is what Jordan and I's summer is about ♥

I'm in love with summer days drifting away and turning into those summer nights. Yes, that was a corny Grease quote but it's so true. My days have been filled with the likes of Brody, Seth, Jordan, and my mom. It's been relaxing, sure we've had some insane nights but it's only here and there. I feel like, every summer I do the same thing, well this summer is a bit different now that Brody is here. But, it hasn't changed much we just have Brody tag along for our pool hangouts at The Hyde Out or if we go out here and there. He's the easiest baby I've ever come across. He's been chowing on peas, peaches, apple sauce, and sweet potatoes. (I'm going to post how to make all of the different foods homemade, it's so much better for your growing sweetcheeks!) But, I do have to have this moment, I've been meaning to write about this for awhile. I was told something, that I realize isn't true because well, who knows the truth but me?

The one person who's truly always been there, and always on my couch or back porch..or just being my tag-a-long (not in a bad way!). Every summer we do the same thing, and every summer we're attached at the hip. It's just the summer thing, and no one seems to understand it. It started probably two or three years ago, and with this person sure, I've definitely put her in her place, or even just made her cry. But, now she knows the extent of my "don't piss me off" mode. But, we've made it through all of that and in the end...I've noticed, she's the only one. She's someone who is genuinely nice, and isn't one of those catty nasty females. And, I'm sorry, the person who said I couldn't be alone? I would like to see where you are now, you can't. Jordan Hyde has been my best friend through thick and thin, we get in spats here and there, but it's nothing to the extent of where I've been with other people. Sure, I want to slap the crap out of her sometimes, but it goes both ways. If I'm having a bad day, or whatever, she will drive over at 4am just to make sure I'm okay and I'll do the same with her. I don't know, Jordan, you are a very special girl and I'm glad to have you in my life and I never want anything to change that way. Other people, well, they're just the "others", you truly mean the most. And, I do look at you like a sister.

♥ summer 2010 ♥