look at me now cover by karmin
rolling in the deep - adele
so, i haven't been listening to much..or everything i have been, it'd just be repeating from previous posts of tuesday tunes, so i just left them out and added two new songs for this week. i absoutely, love the first girl. she has the most amazing covers song, her cover of usher and pitbull's "dj got us fallin in love" is my second favorite besides "look at me now". i only really started listening to rap when seth and i started dating, but it's really not my thing. he pretty much hates what i like to listen too, and slowly but surely i've gotten over it and now only keep what i like to listen to on my iphone for car rides.
so i decided to throw in a little update today, to keep up with things. it's more of a personal one than anything things that have been on my mind, etc.only recently i've felt like, being a nice person and doing things for others because i do throughly believe in karma and know it'll come back to me. even if it's being nice and buying the drinks, buying little things for someone, or taking them to dinner. i do those things because i know, it makes the person happy and it's what you do if you're a friend, girlfriend, or whatever. but, i realize i need to learn how to draw the line because there are times, i feel used. i'll do anything to make my friends or family happy, forgo myself or whatever. but, don't use me. i'm one about taking turns with paying for things, and damn..i can tell you, i'm not buying people things for awhile. well, except for brody. another issue that has been bothering me if i'm wearing a bathing suit? don't make comments on my body, that's a touchy issue. i could do the same thing to whoever does, call anyone fat or ugly..but i don't because that's just uncalled for anyone to say that. everyone knows what it's like to be body conscious, me most importantly, since i'm talking about myself. you know, i have a right to be extremely vain right here. i am sorry i have a nice body, i work for it, i eat properly and i worked out for a long time after brody was born to keep it up. for the first time in my life i'm happy with my body. i don't need to wear padded bras, i can wear some shirts without even a bra and feel ok, i can wear my jeans and not worry about muffin top. so what if i have an ass, don't make a comment about it in my bathing suit, or that how tiny my bathing suit may look, oh i'm sorry it fits me and it looks good. i'm not sure if these people are jealous or whatever, but i'm proud of my body. anyways, i've started to realize, i'm one damn nice person..don't take me or it for me being naive or something. everyone deserves someone being nice to them and being a true friend, family member, etc. i have gotten walked all over by people, and i'll even say this a selected few family members.
nancy said it right herself she said this year was her year, and i believe that this year is my year as well. i want changes and big ones this is one i won't take anymore, people taking advantage, smart comments about my body, and i can't think of anything else. i just needed to get this off of my chest before i explode on someone! this is my year, before anyone elses.
